When We Are Silent 2

Am I too late?...


Three missed calls, one message. Dawn.  Oyinwa. How her name only brings me joy. She has made me smile these last four years in her service. Thoughts of he make me happy I had another shot at life. I didn't always bear the tag of a multi-talented steward you know?

Every position  in our lives, every place where we choose to start afresh has a story. However, we do not always choose to tell our tale...but like many others, I am unsure of what we fear. Pain? Heartache? Reopening the wounds hurt dealt us? our just bruising our pride? None but providence can tell...



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Ejeta Musa Ibrahim Omiakpo, known to all in my present life, as Musa Ibrahim. Multi-linguist, Infotech Graduate and programmer; Good cook with a knack for being handy. Yeah yeah I know-you are now wondering how in the world I spent the last few years in some Chic's crib as what my mama calls boi-boi right?

2005.
Programmer. InfoLex Legal Solutions. My father's company. Yes, Donatus Onajite Omiakpo is My father. Cleo Asante Tamadon, GH rep, InfoLex. The love I thought I had found. I gave her everything-my heart, my soul, my mind, my will to live and my family's major system hacks-you can trust the one you love right?  WRONG! This scheming Jezebel cleared 5 Nigerian accounts and used my cyberseal to withdraw the cash, then changed ship to my friend and started Sahel media solutions. This left me excommunicated from family -all except mum -bless her. And rather than pursue criminal proceedings with his only heir, Onajite had decided he would only internally terminate my appointment till he retired and
I'd feign leave and move to Lagos. And I had to show him that with a fraction of what I had lived on, and with only the house I had bought here  and one car I had taken from mum to fit my new low key lifestyle I could clinch legitimate cash, live in humility and find true love and not the kind to play cops and robbers with my heart.  I swore never to love again. But you  see,we are all made with the ability to make the worlds of those who love us the most fall down. The question is, can we find the one who through it all you want to stay with...because they are the ones who even when they let us down, will hold us now and always.
Since then, I have lived on minor but overpriced web design, a temperate vegetable patch I own, (Jos has wonderful weather for such) and for four years now, a steward job with a young and beautiful young woman.
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She has a meeting with InfoLex today. One that I have orchestrated. The private jet makes sure she gets to Jos and back in time fot me. I love her and I want to have her work for the firm I will own in a few months when my father officially retires.  I had chosen to do this from the sidelines so I can try wooing her without the fanfare. I want her to love me for me...if that is possible. So far, She is my closest friend. And as she went to Ahmadu Bello University she speaks Hausa fluently...but with her, all I have to do is look into her her eyes or say hello on the phone and she knows the content of my heart. Language is no barrier. I only hope I moved fast enough...or I may lose my diamond in the rough.

We've scheduled dinner at hers for seven. We are cooking. Hope my fear doesn't let me down...

When we are silent...1

It has always been said that one's hatred for something does all but guarantee that he never has to preoccupy himself with it. That was what Dr. Arisekola continually intoned as he strode into Legal Theory lectures.

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Oyinwa Philips.  Defence Attorney. Sounds great doesn't it? Yeah even in my ears it does...But it didn't always sound so good. I really just wanted the solitude of music and litterature...but Arisekola knew his onions when he made that statement his maxim for legal theory. I sit on my bed right now as I patiently await sleep. PING. I have to be present at a meeting tomorrow and sound vaguely official an no, I can't say no. I'm on leave. Why now? EA Davidson and Sons Chambers, the firm I work for will be signing a deal with InfoLex Legal Solutions Ltd, an Info-Legal software company. I honestly have only ever heard about the deal and the signing in passing.  So getting a BBM from my boss, Mr Efe Davidson stating that I am to be present at a brunch meeting with the Reps from infoLex is a bit like huh? why? but a young but favoured Senior Partner does not turn down an opportunity to shine. And the bosses say it will be an easy score for me cos I'd dazzle them with a smile and quick wit. Ha! anything to make a fast legit million right? Smh.

On the flip side, this should give me company for at least one day during my six-week leave.
Stay with Me by Ese comes on for like the umpteenth time. I levitate and feel like love is beautiful then cry cos all men fall but some are despicable. Love or not. I wish I had asked that question...Will he cleanse me when I fall??? Right now? I'm trying not to crawl back to what I thought was Love...

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Story for another day.


Clutching a drenched pillow, I make to call up Musa, My steward and brother from years of solitude since my youth in this house all by myself; just too tell him we wouldn't be going on that drive I had suggested as work beckoned and also to tell him to kindly wake me up for 7...Ring, Ring, R---*phone slips from ear*

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Breaking the Silence on Ese Peters

Ese Peters.

I first heard this name musically in  late 2010 (Merry Christmas- Eva ft Ese Peters.) And as a music head, I began to search for other gems by this fresh breath of amazing. And everything from covers to his own work have really left me awe struck. I had read many reviews of his music and I decided to give him a listen myself.  
From the start, I had expected to be pleasesd with his talent. But as  I type, I really feel his heart in his music...it makes you think the world can sometimes revolve around what we feel inside sometimes. And delivery? Classic. With tracks like Wetin I go do, Walk Away and brand new single Stay with me, this young but gifted Nigerian musician is sure to leave a lasting footprint in global music...making music that is universal as well as his...

Enjoy...

Click link for Stay with me- http://www.notjustok.com/2011/08/29/ese-peters-stay-with-me/#idc-container  
 And for other amazing stuff see www.reverbnation.com/EsePeters
   xxo
da_sweetthin.

The mind's picture...in high Resolution

The teardrop stood still as I heard;
Remembering all the times I actually cared for selfish ramblings of a child that never really grew.

Asking what to do? As the hurt felt so new, different, kinda like it were opium seeping through the veins of another new addict, totally oblivious of the perils to come in the form of deletion of feeling...

But I had felt it before...why was this alien? Why did my blood go cold? Why did that split second hold my life in the balance? Wasn't she the dress thief in the hidden coral reef of my past that I hailed as "Cara" because I saw her for what she painted-Spring's bidding new leaf? My hearts little dress thief...

But the relief is in knowing that no one will eat our harvest for us bt we, the planter. I say we because a blue blooded maiden has decided to leave the picture of poppies where it belongs...Seeping into the sands of time ravaged by Neptune's salt water of Justice.

I pause for redress...Forever...

All time low...*

I'm in a really shitty mood right now and I wanted to write.


Everywhere else seemed a tad too private and though everything you read here is a 100% my personal THOUGHTS, I want my mind to be looked into, seen for what it is, by friends, foes, family and the odd majorly bored person, searching for an escape.

Right now, I'm putting together a French thesis resubmission (yeah I am no geek, I'd rather do amazing things with my summer but things happen.) And for reasons ranging from convalescence-just finding my feet since my last entry, to anger with myself for not fighting hard and long for the freedom to do what I want with my life-Law??? like seriously??? Kmt* I'm on a major low right now.


Sooo I'm thinking I'll start the rest of our plot with you guys. I'm shaky and without my BB by my side, so...it may not be perfect.(most of my work over the last 3 months r on it...) but I love to plot more than life(and the L word!) sooo...here goes!

P.s
Lol I'm glad you all read to this point and I love you profusely for reading my rant! (The real rant can't be published as I am a clean writer and would NOT Dis people or things on my blog!) 

It's good to be back! The plot entry will be done in 4 weeks. I will post up poetry soon too as well as an insightful look at an amazing Nigerian Alt-Rocker, guitarist, singer and song-writer-The amazing Ese Peters.

Till then,

A bientot!

da_sweetthin

Truths, Lies and ish with maybe Written in bold LETTERS

 I'm a girl
You just might be a guy
Yes not all birds fly....

A Cheater wil always deny till u bring a tale-teller nigh...
I hate it when i cry....
Cos it makes it makes me afraid to die...

Pain is Relative.

Thats y it is equated with the a four letter word used to cause so much of it....Y? because people fall in HOLES and call it Love....then they get up from them feeling like they've got prolonged "magun" Without a distributee to take it away.... KmT

God loves all...
Jesus Loves ME...yes MEEEE!
If u want Him to Love U too?
Be willng to DIE for HIM

Anxiety is there so we know we need to be on bended knees...if u dont believe me ask BEP...

Sanity doesnt exist...
Insanity is the botched up end of the futile quest to seem sane to the world...

nothing is static..nt even change....so neva waste time with people that expect you to stay the same for them...

Love does not come at first anything..i have my reasons for saying this people...and if you fall u will get up....albeit Shamefully...which is y the best way is to walk into it...y? if u walk out u can even take the Liberty to Waltz.....Take lessons...

If u test her and she fall ur hand it doesnt mean she is a tramp....u tested her remember???? This can be switched to favour dudes too cos yup...We do it too...
 
Ikebe no be money all the time....
She loves it when u sing to her....yeah u lot can change to suit u 2...

Not everything said on the pillow is heartfelt the exact way u WANT it to be....bt u see, when its said on the pillow....it gets misinterpreted...Not by him/her tho.....by U.

Angels Fly Away....Only heaven knows if they'll come another day....
If they do, live each day like its ur last...*airkiss*

Spice is sweet....*

too much is SOUR....*

JAGZ is Hot...*TANGENT*

Thinking of U takes me far over 10 seas like a boat with intergalactic capabilities...(pst....u over there....i no u aint wearing a dunce hat bt there are really 7 waters....so no new theories welcome puhleeez!)

Innocence is never gone unless u close ur eyes to ur spirit....it also doesnt exist if ur aim is to look the part they want you to play...

He is NOT going out with you cos u Hang girll please....

Being silent about it is just a way to say this ish is sweet meen bt m ge le dudu no K'ocho * figurative idoma...get a translator* or listen to Implication and get the negative + please... Or he is just quiet...bt th first is more likely...

I'm walking Away...*

Don't cry for me.....*




His misson is to present the gift without the curse....But it is a curse to chase/demand his cash....
*na love we go chop*-in the affirmative is meant to be the deal sometimes...

Shepe does not  mean home with u....if u no fess up u go fuel sum kain onome like that o! Ogogogoro mistress Toh'oni gbese oshi ni o....so hold ur cash


I am nothing...
Without You...
*RANDOM FACT*
Softish rock is soooooo sexy....*GUESS whats playing???*


SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO


That'll never Stop basking in thots of U....
Jacked up the rest of this.....

But that is what makes this Mine...being every bit of urs....
Like i promised a certain day wld be

Besos *

Peephole to my soul

My  first Semi-erotic poem.....
I got some help for this....


How do you....

Make me proud
Keep me strong
Stay so close;
I need no clothes

Make me need you,
Start to crave you
Get depraved
But still seem brave.

Then my mind is in rivers,
My body quivers
Hormones Deliver
Nerves violently sliver
At the thought of you.

With the morning dew,
comes renewed thoughts of you
 As the day is new,
  Fresh fire Ensues.

The world makes me a recluse
But you make me break loose
Keep me warm thru the blues
I know u know
but i should still have said it
it's way overdue
But i will say i'm in love with you.....


E be like say water don pass garri
Haske na
mia na
Oche kum
Obi m
Gishiri na
Fitila na
Agbara mi
Nkem
Nwoke oma m
Dunia na

If i no yan this ish now na kpai be dat o
Lol
ok... fine... enuf....
back to this...

My world
My light
even in the dark, u turn my lights on....to effortlessly knock them off in a calculated breath...
You do more than sate me...u complete the circle
Like each Luna cycle...

And with each chuckle
u engulf my soul in ur bubble
knowing exactly when to say what
Unknowingly, u make me hot
chilling my spine in the same minuite
like a blanco shot
Might as well make you the boss

At the end of the day?
U make me happy
To finally  find myself
To love hard...To Fall like im flying
In the absence of Gravity

Even in the purity of a *gasp*

For an eternity....

Besos
<3

With thanx to md.M.M